When life gives you lemons, please, just don't squirt them in other people's eyes

So today turned it to another family war.  But it was bound to happen because their were still tense feeling from the last one, that never really got resolved.   People just don't know when to stop.  Before it would really really bother me, now it still does but not as much.  I know who i am.  I know that i have done things wrong, and their has been times i  have talked crap about people.  BUT i don't lie about it when asked, i may shamefully admit it because i know better.  But what really really gets under my skin is when people lie about it.  Your caught now just admit the freaking truth, don't try to play the victim.  Own up to your mistakes.  Maybe that's just something i have learned with age.  I have no problem apologizing and admitting when I'm at fault, have the time i still do it even when I'm not at fault.   I'm am just sooo unbelievably irritate.  i don't know whether i should just delete these people or what.  But jealousy is not a pretty thing.  I have just had it,  With all the bulling lately.  It reminds me of when i was younger and i would go around family and never feel good enough because i was fatter then all the cousins, or they would ask about grades and try to be compared.  Your not stupid when your little you know your being judged.  I felt like i got judged from a early age, that i was never good enough.  I didn't have 2 parents, we didn't make alot of money, i made bad grades and i was fat.  Which seem to make me targets of criticism and snide remarks. 
  Little did i know that those who were hurting me were making me stronger, and didn't even realize it.  So cut to today, yes I'm still fat, and i don't get graded and never went to college, still don't have alot of money!  But what i do have is worth more then all that because i have integrity, pride and self worth, and more importantly i have God.  I don't need to take all the crap people hand me.  I am full, I'm not empty or shallow.  I don't need to start drama and lie about it.  Yes this will piss some people off but oh well. 
I have a drive in me. 
 I will not be stopped.
I don't know what it is, but its always been there, and the more crap that people try to put on me, and put me down.  Well the flame just grows brighter, and I'm going to shine no matter what!!!  I don't care if that sounds cocky, because its not meant to be.  I am confident in where i am going.  My past and all the judging has made me stronger.  I have a thick skin, and its not from tanning lol
This was supposed to be just a nice blog but well that didn't happen i have way to much on my mind.