New Challenges

Lots of challenges, as i face these upcoming holidays.  Thanksgiving wasn't really my down fall it was the few days before and after that got me.  My in laws from Illinois came to visit,  i did good on the nights where i cooked, but the nights where we went out to eat since Adam was off.  Well that was kinda my kryponite, because i would think i have never been to this place before.  And lets face it no one wants to eat salad 24/7.  I do feel like most of the places i went to i made as healthy choices as i could like tea instead of dr pepper, and no potatoes, or starchy foods.  But the extras that most restaurants cook their food with is crazy all the oils, butter and not to mention crazy sodium.  But even in bad situations where i don't make the best food choices, i feel like i learn from them.  Yesterday when we went to pops i did have dr p of  course and some vanilla Carmel cream soda which could easily become my favorite.  i like to call it creme brulle in a bottle lol.   Thankfully i have already lost 2 of the 5 i gained this week.  I'm hoping alot of it is water weight because i feel like my fingers are going to pop open because of the swelling.  I find myself thinking i cant believe i used to eat like this everyday, but i also see on the other "swollen" hand how easy it could be to fall back in to those same patterns.   This is defiantly a learning time for me.  But i think this time is different i feel my will to succeed is stronger and i know I'm going to have some slip ups and down time.  But i cant let it get me down.  Which brings me to me to the next topic stress and comfort eating.  Adams step dad passed away and it was unexpected.  He had diabetes and developed pneumonia, and within 24 hrs it took him.  I find that so scary.  It makes me realize how much more susceptible people with diabetes are to those things.  I think about the warning about that my doctor gave me, and realize now how much they matter.  I have to take care of myself.  I'm the only one that can.  I am responsible for my own choices.  So no excuse, i don't have to eat it because its in front of me, i can politely decline most people understand, also just because food is at a party doesn't mean i have to eat it, as good as it may be.  This week i know I'm going to have a hard time, i don't deal with death real well.  It scares me beyond belief.  Its hard dealing with things that you cant control or change...   We leave Wednesday, but i can do it and be responsible for my own choices and supportive at the same time.  Life's all about finding that balance that works for you.