Dream Chaser

"If you're going to be thinking, you may as well think big." Donald Trump 

Some days i just wake up with ideals in my head, well the ideals have always been there.  Its weird i guess how my mind thinks.  I go along fine, and then i get a pull that i cant ignore.  I cant even describe how it feels.  I guess its the need for change.  And it doesn't come on slowly with me, its always like a strong crash that i cant ignore, and nothing triggers it.  I just wake up and it happens.   Maybe its something bigger inside of you desiring more then your giving.  I'm not sure what to even call it, so ill just call it the dream.  I think all people have them.  But what defines you is where will your dreams take you?  Will you change them into reality?  I honestly think when people set there mind to do something, resources or not if you want it bad enough it will be done.   Not knowing what you want is where alot of people get stuck.  I have the opposite, i know what i want.  My fear is failing or succeeding, sometimes its hard for me to tell them apart.  Because every failure, is one step closer to success.  It probably sounds like I'm talking in circles, but I'm sure there is some people that understand what i mean.  

Its scary going after what you want.  I wish i could rewind time, but that cant be done.  (yet) lol j/k 

Basically what I'm getting at is i want a life change.  I want to live near a ocean, work at a aquarium or zoo.  Something is the marine biology, or zoology field.  Those who know me,  know i love doing hair, and makeup. But i also LOVE animals!!  Ever since i was little i would go to the zoo, and say that i wanted to work there.  I also have a shark obsession, yes its weird i know.  I'm kinda a  nerd, well when it comes to animals anyways. 

I just don't know how to get from where I'm at now to where i want to be?  I'm pretty good at ignoring obstacles,lol  But well money is a pretty big one.  I know i could do the science and biology, but the thought of math scares me beyond belief.  i have problem with grade school math,lol.    Its not that i think I'm dumb, going by my grades in school i kinda always just excepted that.  But the truth is i hated high school, and i didn't study or do my homework.   So that's not really a good comparison.   If your reading this and i do your hair don't freak out,lol  were talking like a good 5 yrs before even considering a career change ;)  

I just had to get this off my mind, and any advise you have on grants, aid, info, would be appreciated.  I don't even know where to Begin,  but i do know all the good things in life started with a dream.