Meant For More

Sometimes i really think certain things are meant to be, its like people say certain things and it just hits you like someone punched you in the stomach and now your awake. I feel like right now I'm on the right path, with my health and my career.  I couldn't be happier doing what i love, it makes me so happy. But there is still that missing piece in my life, and that's the piece that's wants a family.
I realize that i can have a baby and it will happen, but i also realize that their is a need for kids with out homes, that have no one for the holidays or to take them on hay rides, to do the little things in life.  I feel like my heart is big enough that i can adopt and have natural kids and feel the same.  I just feel that i should be giving more.  I have had the thought of adoption before and just kinda put it out of focus for a while because we lived in a apt and in the ghetto, but things are different, and we are working our way to starting over in so many words. 
So i talked to Adam yesterday, and i kinda already know that he thinks adoption is a good thing, but obviously we have to work as a team.  He agreed that he thought it would be a good things also to have a blended family, i know that he doesn't feel any different about all the great brothers and sisters he has and he has like 10 thousand not really lol but alot!! 
Were giving a year to prepare and straighten out some finical situations that we have.  Honestly i don't care if people judge me and are like umm yall cant afford a kid and so on, because if everyone waited till they could their would be very little children in the world!  just thought i would throw that in for the talkers.. Because when you have to make it, you do make it.  i don't know how but it always works out and me, and Adam are never lacking.
I don't know why i just feel so strongly about this. It just broke my heart when my customer and me were talking about it yesterday.   I'm getting older and i want a big family.  I think me and Adam are both getting to the point where we really want something more.
I'm giving it a  year, so we can handle the situations, get the house ready and so on.  Then what we are going to do is adopt through dhs, its not nearly as crazy amount of legal cost and adoption cost as through regular adoption but Its defiantly affordable and the concept is still the same, we are helping a child in need.  We are very excited for all the changes to come.